曼妮和阿爷

曼妮在鱼儿生命中扮演重要的角色。而鱼儿却感觉她是可又可无的， 有时还觉得她好可怕啊！---生不带来，死不带去！而她却让鱼儿身边的朋友一次又一次为她受伤。好可恶！对他又爱又恨。

阿爷呢?他的出现造成家不能和，万事都不能兴。

阿爷很喜欢曼妮，常常守着她，不让她离开。燕子说阿爷他不是个好人， 常常为了他和家人吵架。有时闹到要离开似的。

夫子，鱼儿和瓶儿常常为了此事而伤心。鱼儿劝燕子算了吧！气什么呢？气又不能弥补心中的恨，也不能解决问题，倒不如放下心中的恨。说不定人会更开心呐。燕子又气鱼儿不懂她的心！不懂阿爷当年怎样对待她！又气夫子老是不支持她！常常闹到像没人要她，支持她似的！何必呢？

鱼儿和瓶儿很像对燕子和夫子说，他俩是幸福的， 她们俩懂的。家和万事兴阿！

夫子也是的！他欠了曼妮很多。燕子又为了此事吵了！说夫子不能给她幸福。这也难怪燕子的。是我的话，我也希望我可以幸福快乐！其实，父子和燕子谁也没欠谁。只是彼此不会表达心中的爱罢了。

不知是不是鱼儿和瓶儿当年种的因，今生受的果？她俩心里只要幸福快乐，安安静静地度过一生，就这么简单而已，难吗？过分吗？我说啊：“只要有恒心，希望，易足和爱心；那怕路有多远，也有到达目的地的时候！”

善人善报，不要灰心！漂流在海中的船也有靠岸的一天！我相信你们能的！要加油哦！菩萨会保佑你们的！

The feeling of broken heart

27 December 2010, night

My father-in-law request my hubby to collect debt from customer in Bayan Lepas. We bring mother-in-law together for shopping after the collection. We went to Longwan for the shopping. Kai Sheng was very happy in Longwan. He was ran around in the mini market and play hide and seek with me. It is a wonderful time and memorable for me and my son. The happiness time will not long. During the back time, Kai Sheng was felt down from the car and bleeding a lot. I cannot remember the clear situation, I just can remembers that time, I am carrying my baby, I asked my mother-in-law to sit in front so that she can have a better seat as we bought a lot of things. Kai Sheng already in the car, my hubby was put the grocery stuff into the car, at that time he ran out from the car and felt down out of the car. I still cans remember how he felt down in front of me but I cannot safe him at that time. I am very regret why i cannot safe him. He was bleeding a lot till his pant, my hubby shirt and my shirt also cover with his blood. He was kept crying. I feel very painful at that time. My heart was broke, I do not know what to do, just wish he is fine. I really very frighten.... What just we can do is send him to nearest clinic for the 1st aid. Thanks god, the nurse from the Bersatu willing to let us see doctor 1st out from the long queue of the patients. He is crying loud when doctor clean wound. Luckily he just injure at the mouth. So, Doctor just gave antibiotic, pain killer and mouth liquid for him. I called my family for their information. They came to visit Kai Sheng. Kai Sheng's mouth was swollen but he still can talk a lot. He looks happy when play with his cousin- Zi Yi although got fight for the toys. I have a sleepless night whole day. The screen was appear when I close my eyes. This case makes my heart broken and I blame myself why did not take a good care to him. I swear I will not let this case happens again in my life. I wish his mouth can recovers soon without any scar left over. Gods, bless me please!!!

疲劳的夜

2010 年12 月 23 日

今晚是我最疲劳的夜。

不知怎么，累到我不想起来喂奶。那小瓜-楷旋吵得很！12 点半夜，起不了床，丈夫被必起床帮我喂奶； 喝完奶，小瓜还在吵，已喝 4 oz 了，他还吵不够！真是的！奈他没法子， 我唯有起身塞他奶嘴，用布把他裹起来，酱可让他睡个好觉。


半夜两点，小瓜又吵了！为他喝奶，他喝了1 oz 就不喝了。 我累到忘了还没到时间，他一吵，第一时间，我就想到他饿了。在无可奈何之下，唯有把奶放热。按服他先睡。

陆陆续续闹了又静，静了又闹。整整忙了整晚！

那一夜破了纪录，他在两个小时里共喝了8 oz 奶。

好累哦！可没办法，谁叫自己是他母亲啊！

小宝贝，你要乖哦， 不然妈咪会累垮了！

2 sons's mum diary

I still look fat after a month.......... :(

After back from confinement, I need to take care of 2 years old son and new born baby by myself.

What's a problem here?

1. My eldest son jealous of the new born baby.-He will always purposely bit my 2nd son.

-He don't like his new born brother sleep on his bed, use his pillow, etc...

2. My new born baby will wake up 2-3 hours once for the milk.

- When the new born baby crying and this will disturb my eldest son for the sleep at night as he need to go to nursary for the next morning.

What's a solution to temporary solve these problems?

1. What can i do here is always remind and teach him that the new born brother is just a baby, he is his brother and need to always love him. All the action must be very light and careful as his youngest brother is just a baby.

2. Always ask my eldest son share his toys, his pillow, etc... to his new born brother. This call love.

3. Temporary separate them at the night time.

- my eldest son will sleep with his grandma and the new born baby will sleep with me and my husband.

- some time will bring me eldest son go to upstairs and play with him and accompany him to sleep with me 1st then his dad will carry him to down stair to sleep with his grandma when he is fall in sleep. After bring my eldest son down to his grandma's room then will bring my baby up and sleep with me.

I hope the 3rd step is just a temporary solution, because i prefer both of my sons will sleep with me so that their relationship will getting improve.

I am sick after back from the confinement center due to not enough sleep and rest. I got thinking that want to find a nanny to taking care of my new born baby at night so that my husband & I can have a good sleep at night as both of us need to wake up early for the work. But, we still worry will impact our relationship with the baby. Financial problem also part of this that we try to taking care by ourselves.

I wish the time can pass through fast so that we can use to it that always awake from the night and wish my baby will stop to drink milk at the midnight.

Last night in the confinement centre

13th December 2010, Raining day


Packing...


My food...


My room (F3)...




Tonight will be my last night in Ai Xin Confinement Center. Tomorrow noon, my husband will pick me & my baby home for full moon celebration during his lunch time. He unable to taking his annual leave due to he just joining the new company and don't have annual leave available yet.

What's my feeling now?

Happy + worry.
The happiest is finally I can go home, I can see my eldest son Kai Sheng, I can sleep at my own bed...

The worry is I am not dare to taking care a baby. I really worry that I will be "kelam kabut" while handle my baby. Any how, I wish I can. I should believe myself as I am a 2 children mum.

三千丝烦恼

2010 年12 月12 日， 晴

今天提早为楷旋派满月手信，顺便带他到阿姨店去为他理个满月头。大儿子楷胜，爸妈及家婆也跟着。



楷旋比他哥哥楷胜较乖，只须六姨一人就帮他理掉三千丝烦恼 。


理发前 理发后



随着是楷胜和他爸， 也理掉三千丝烦恼， 理完发，楷胜还要六姨为他洗头和吹头呢！



正准备着。。。。。



理着发。。。。。


洗着头。。。。


而我，也让七姑帮我洗个28 天没洗的头。洗完头，整个人都轻松起来。好爽哦！

这整家理发记也挺有趣的！

祝我家永远都幸福快乐！

寂寞的夜

2010 年12 月11

今晚老公要出席同事婚宴， 所以不能来探望我了。

虽说早上和旁晚他已来过，可我总觉得今晚好无聊, 好累似的.

想看戏, 又觉得好悃; 上网,不知上什么网.

唉!做什么好呢?

好期待星期二的到来呀!

窗外

坐月期间，每天早上都有望着窗外的习惯。 这习惯已成了我坐月时其中一个消遣。。。细心地留意着窗外的情景，人物和天空。




无意中， 发现每天我都会看到一个每天都穿着一样的衣服 （红色的 T-shirt）和褐色的裤的老伯伯在扫街，然后会站在汉堡档旁， 不知在看些什么。

今天12月10日，我如往常那样望着窗外，可我没看到那位老伯伯。心里竟然有点失落，担心。不知他是不是病了。

奇怪，这我毫不认识的人竟然让我那么忧心。。。毫不放弃的我, 时间过了还不停的往窗外看，盼能见到那老伯伯一面。上天真地代我很好，真的再见到他了。 虽然是迟了点， 只要看到他平安无事，我已很满足了。

这老伯伯无意中成为我窗外留意的人，而我会是谁留意的对象呢？

纯纯的爱

看完了巾帼枭雄之义海豪情，才发现原来纯纯的爱也可以很感人。

爱可以不需要惊天动地，也不需要三盟海誓， 只要彼此有一颗懂对方的心。这已足够了。


傻傻的我，不停的寻找着童话般的爱情故事，一直埋怨着我的丈夫为何没有一颗浪漫又细心的心。看完了这部戏后， 明白了，哪怕只剩下一秒，只要彼此真心相对，这已是一辈子了！

礼物

星期一收到老公一份突来的礼物。老公问了我一句话：“我不知道这次你会有惊喜，还是又啰嗦？“

怎知，这次的礼物是有此以来，是我预想不到的礼物。。。因每次我都会预感到他会送我什么。

好遇外的。。。Kenny-G 的 "The Moment" 专辑耶！
虽这不是什么金银珠宝，也不是什么昂贵的礼物。但它却让我有点感动呢。我梦寐以求想得到的礼物哦！谢谢你，老公！

你要记得哦，礼轻情意重，我想要得就是这么简单。 只要你的细心，贴心和用心的礼物，这永远都可让我难忘。

加油哦！你可办到的！